As we cuddled last night Steve told me what a nice, trustworthy guy I am. He's never been so close to a guy before and is concerned about what will happen in January. There will be a big hole in his life if he does not come back to the US. If he does come back, I may not be here. Job search is heating up, and I think something will come through soon.
I've explained that maybe our lives will go in different geographic directions, but we will still be close friends. Worst case, he now has a very close lifelong, trustworthy friend. A friend he doesn't have to hide anything from.
Those are hard to find.