Monday, February 24, 2020

Saturday Night Art

I was visiting galleries in Atlanta this weekend.  I came across this interesting piece.

Saturday, February 15, 2020


One of my fellow bloggers posted about his favorite porn stars....Ashton Summers

He also mentioned that he liked Helix.  For those of you who don't know (probably every gay guy knows this), Helix niche in gay porn is younger looking guys, like 18, 19, 20.  The scenes are frequently set in what looks like a guys bedroom in his parents house, or maybe a dorm room.

Why do I feel a little depressed when I watch Helix?  I can't help thinking what would it be like to fully realize and accept your sexuality at age 16, 17, 18, 19.  Lot's of guys at this age have girlfriends, and there's plenty of people who are dating and sexually active at this age.  It's part of a coming of age for a lot of people.

Not for me.  I didn't really connect with anyone and become sexually active until 23, 24.....very late.  Seven or eight years with nothing.  That's a very long time, and a lonely time.

When I was that age being gay was one of the worst things you could be.  My parents certainly wouldn't have accepted it, and I might have been one of those kids kicked to the curb.  Left homeless.   I didn't accept or maybe even realize that I was gay.  Maybe I had an interest but that doesn't mean I was gay.

Today things are different.  We even have an openly gay man with a same sex husband who is a front runner in the presidential race.  Being gay is far more accepted.  I think it's much less likely that a young LGBT person will be tossed into the street.  Although sadly it does still happen.  I know of many situations where young gay men only sixteen years old are openly gay, have a boyfriend, and this is accepted by their families.  If a gay man has a boyfriend, then there's sex.  There just is.

So when I see these scenes on Helix it makes me a little sad.  I didn't get to have that, but then I realize it's just the way my life had to be.  Better that things played out this way so that I've had a pretty comfortable life, than to have been homeless and uneducated.  Struggling through life.

Monday, February 10, 2020

Back from FL

Just back from my few days in South Florida.  Weather was most excellent.  Spent some time at the beach and just walking around.  Lot's of Latin eye candy!  Aaron was sick part of the time, but otherwise things went well.  South Beach was expensive -- like $300 a night for just a fairly basic hotel.  We moved to Ft Lauderdale on Saturday.  Again, pretty expensive.  SoBe is s much nice than FL in my opinion. 

We went to club called Twist in SoBe.   Did not like it.  So jammed with people you couldn't even move.  Super loud.  No entertainment, like drag show or dancing boys.  We didn't stay long.

The food was good.  One Mexican restaurant near the hotel was very good, and had a lot of very hot Latino waiters as a bonus.

Overall good trip, but expensive.  I need to find a new ocean hangout.  But in February where else can you go that's warm?  Maybe Mexico.

Sunday, January 26, 2020

Miami - Fort Lauderdale Gay Hotel?

I'm going to Fort Lauderdale and Miami for a few days next month with my bf.  I'm not really a big beach person as I am Northern European, which translates to being pretty white.  Therefore don't do well in sun.

I was surprised at the number of gay hotels in both locations.  I didn't realize Fort Lauderdale was so gay, so interested in exploring that.  Should we stay at a gay hotel?  What's that experience like?  One of the hotels in Fort Lauderdale has "a sling in every room."  Interesting.  I just want a few days of r&r, not a vacation in a sex club.

Anyway, considering our options.

Saturday, January 25, 2020

🚫 Sugar

I am trying to reduce sugar from my diet.  Twenty years ago it was fat that was evil.  Now it's sugar.

I'm not to the point where I can totally eliminate it, but I've stopped eating the stuff that is really just pure sugar.  Like candy bars and and other sweet foods.  I'll shift my diet to more protein.

I need to rebalance my life now.  Lot's of changes last year.  I needed to be focused at work.  But now I need to swing towards more personal time.

Thursday, January 2, 2020

Sex Diaries

I've been reading this column on The Cut (part of NY Magazine).  It's called Sex Diaries.  People write a diary about their sex life for a week.  Most of the writers are women.

I'm noticing there's a similar story line with most of these women.  Trolling through hookup apps to meet men, or keeping numbers from guys they've met at a bar.  Jumping from guy to guy all week.  Sometimes fucking guys they know, and sometimes guys they've known for ten minutes.  Three, four, five guys in a seven day period. 

This is fulfilling?

Everyone has their own preferences, but it doesn't sound fulfilling to me.  One other common aspect to the between finding their next hookup they are looking for their anti-depressants or having a therapy session.

Anyway, wouldn't be fulfilling for me.  But I don't want to be judgmental.  Obviously it's doing something for them or they wouldn't do it.

And look at me.  I'm reading these stupid sex diary articles.  So much for my exciting life.

Monday, December 30, 2019

New Year's Eve

"Big plans for New Year's Eve?"

Some asked me that today.  Just a quiet evening with friends I told them.  But the truth is that it will be a quiet evening by myself.  My long distance bf won't be here.  Even if someone invited me to a party I wouldn't go.  I really don't like being around more than a few people. 

I feel sort of badly that I'll be by myself.  But on the other hand, I don't want anything different.  If my bf was here that would be perfect.  We are both quiet people.  We wouldn't do anything besides have dinner and watch a movie.  Neither of us drink.  Neither of us are partiers.

Wow, the two most boring guys ever.