I've basically made up my mind that I'm not meeting anyone right now. It's just not a good idea. I'm staying active. I have many things to do. So even though I'm "touch starved," I'll tough it out for now. Next checkpoint is Labor day weekend. Let me see how I feel then, and decide what to do.
Saturday, August 8, 2020
On a positive note, I've been exercising more and eating well for over two months. I'm now down to 73kg on my 5'8" (173cm) body. I shouldn't go below 71kg. I'm focusing more on resistance exercises than cardio now. Although cardio does make me feel good.
Why am I so sensitive about my own weight? Some time ago I met this guy who was 5'8 and 95kg. I thought he was so hot. I loved his body. He was like a bear, not dough boy. I guess being somewhat overweight looks good on some guys, but not for me.
Today I will try making soup in my Instant Pot. I'm thinking creamy chicken jalapeno soup. This will be therapeutic for me. Then a bike ride.
My long distance bf is back in Xi'an to take care of his mom who is sick with cancer. I told him he needs to be there. If something happens he will regret it forever. It's early in the process and no idea how this will turn out. But I doubt he will be back anytime soon. I can get along by myself right now.
I'll certainly have lots of extra money to travel when this is over. That's one positive of this situation.
Monday, August 3, 2020
Sunday, August 2, 2020
Saturday, July 25, 2020
I'm thinking this could go on for another year. There's lots of talk about a vaccine. If the first vaccines are 70% effective are we still going to feel safe? I won't. It could be months after the first vaccine arrives before they get it right.
So I have to make the best of this. I'm eating well, exercising, getting some sun, reading, staying connected with friends, biking, cooking. And of course working.
I'm not a person who needs a lot of human interaction. But zero is hard. I wish I had someone close to me...just one...
Sunday, July 19, 2020
Truth is I don't really want to meet anyone. I haven't been on Grindr, or the like, for more than a month now. I've been reading, watching a few TV series, having long walks or short runs, and that's about it. Oh, and of course working quite a bit.
So feeling more antisocial than usual I guess.
Could I be depressed? Maybe low level.
I don't even know where to start in making new friends. The reality is if your heart is not really in it, then it's not going to happen. In this city there aren't many of the younger Asian guys I've befriended in recent years. I talk to my friends, but they're not here and they're not traveling.
Part of this is due to Covid. I'm following the rules pretty strictly. The danger is for sure increasing. It could be a year before we have a vaccine. Who knows how well it will work?
So far now I just go about me normal routine.
Sunday, July 5, 2020
I ask, "What's a good day?"
What makes a day good versus bad? Or mediocre? Or just a forgettable nothing day?
I didn't do much. I added some plants to my terrace. Went for several longs walks. Did some grocery shopping. Fired up my grill to make beef vegetable kebobs. Binged watched a tv series. Finished some work. Chatted with a friend. Mostly stayed at home, but isn't that what we are supposed to do in a pandemic?
I didn't have a bad weekend. But I'm not sure how good it was either.