I'm just thinking about what would make me happier. Spending more time with my bf would make me happier....that's what I think. In six weeks we have a trip. Then he will stay at my place for a while. Then I will stay at his place for a while. By that time it will be July. I'll think about going back to his place in July since it's cooler there.
Today I was reading about the loneliness epidemic among men, particularly middle aged and older men. I There is a dearth of friends, especially close ones, for this group. It's harder to make friends as you age. Surveys find that many men have few friends and feel lonely.
I don't feel lonely. Maybe I'm anti-social, but I do not want to be at a bar with the guys. Or barbecuing in someone's backyard. Or whatever. I can stand being with one or two people, maybe three, and that's it. My bf is the same way. He has many opportunities to socialize with this gay group, and he refuses to do it. I just feel uncomfortable and awkward, like I don't fit in. I view this as a good thing.....it simplifies my life and that's good.
No big plans whe0n my bf is here. We like to watch movies in the evening. This time we will master making baguettes. There were a few failed attempts last time. Sometimes I make dinner. Sometimes he does. It will be a quiet, simple time.
But getting back to friends. I do have friends in other cities and I enjoy spending time with them. I like to have a few other friends for deep conversation and dinner.
We all have different social needs. Probably it's abnormal to have zero social contacts, but there's a range of normality above that.
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