Oversharing

My bf is on the fringes of a large group of Asian gay guys.  When he's feeling less antisocial, he sometimes socializes with smaller groups of them.  The topic of conversation is often sex.  The larger group is a mix of couples and single guys.  He will tell me about the conversations sometimes, and usually say that he doesn't want to hear about their sex lives.  Haha, but I can tell he does want to hear about it.  I've told him that I think he actually does like hearing about what they do.  It seems interesting.  The group is active, and at least one of them is probably a sex addict.  Topics all over the place, from hookups to which couples are having challenges, open or even sexless.

While we were talking a few days ago he mentioned that he had told them something about our sex life.  I recoiled a bit and he could tell.  I'm a private person and not sure how I feel about this.  Not really a big deal I think.  Maybe it's good to show them some of our humanity?  They know who I am.  I've socialized with the larger group one time, although I find it awkward because they are mostly speaking Chinese.  I've socialized with smaller groups a few times.  I'll see my bf in ten days and we can discuss.    

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On another note, beautiful weather today.   I feel like winter is over.  At 7am it was 59 F (15 C).  I went running three miles.  It felt really good.  Yesterday I went out for a walk around 6:30am.  It was still dark, but so many people out running and walking.  Morning people.  I'm going to go out more in the early morning. 

Warm Weather!

 

The cold weather seems to have passed.   The next three days will be above 70 F (21 C).  I am thankful for this.  I've lost my tolerance for cold weather.  This weather is an opportunity to go running, and I need a break from my spin bike.  I'll do it a little differently this time.   I will try interval training.  Specifically a Norwegian variation called 4x4.   It's supposed to be highly effective in improving VO2 Max and reducing visceral fat.  Something different, let's see how it goes.

Two weeks until my Mexico trip.   I'm excited to get out of town and have an adventure.  Not Cancun!  I'm really turned off by that touristy place.   I've never been on the Maya Train, so looking forward to that.  I've been tagging restaurants and sights I want to visit.  I want this to be slower travel.  Not multiple cities in ten days like I often do.   This time just two locations -- one in the city and one at the beach, and they are only one hour apart.  Explore and absorb the local culture.

No luck on an interim job yet.  I need to work a little harder on it.  I'm thinking about a trip to Europe in September and October.  So that would be a hard stop date on any work plans.  On a trip a few years ago I met some girls who seem to just travel all year long.   They were raving about Morocco being their favorite country.  I'm thinking I want to go there.  Should be easy to travel to Tangier from Spain. 

  

 Everyone is entitled to secrets.

Disneyland

 

Imagine a one day trip to Disneyland.  Knowing that the park is generally open from 8am to 11pm, you would want to make sure you go to all the attractions you're interested in.  As the day progresses, there might be a little anxiety as you try to fit in all the attractions on your list.  You learn the layout and operation, and become more efficient in making your way through the park.  You want to maximize this day.  By 7pm, with four hours left, you think hard about what you want to do in the remaining time.  Disneyland is huge, and you can't possible see everything in one day.  At 11pm you'll  have some regret about the attractions you missed.

If my life was a one day visit to Disneyland, then it's 7:26pm.  Only a few hours left.  Use them well. 

 

Epstein Files

How many millions of pages of Epstein documents have now been released?   As it turns out, if you're not in the Epstein files you're a nobody.

Today Madame G, in testimony to Congress, exercised her Fifth Amendment rights to not answer any question, and demanded clemency to talk.  She continues to demand clemency because Trump has not ruled it out!!

This whole thing is just unbelievable.  How did this guy connect with so many high profile, wealthy people?  So many conspiracy theories are flying around -- he was an intelligence asset, a Mossad  spy, who knows what else.

It's also interesting to see how many lies were exposed.   People who claimed to cutoff Epstein in 2009, and then actually continued to be quite friendly with him.  Prince Andrew, Fergie, Howard Lutnick to name a few.

We need the truth.  No one believes he committed suicide in prison.  The story here is huge and needs to be told.  We will all be shocked.  It won't look good for "his closest pal".  

A pardon is coming.....I'm sure.   When?  After the mid-terms?   Or right before his term ends?  How long will she wait in her more comfortable, minimum security quarters before exercising leverage?

Superbowl

What's wrong with me?

I have no interest in watching the Superbowl.  Or going to a Superbowl party. 

Sharing Sensitive Topic

It's great when friends feel so comfortable with you that they share sensitive personal information.  This happened recently when a friend told me about his challenges with erectile dysfunction.  He's become surprisingly knowledgeable on the topic -- not only for his personal challenge, but how this problem is affecting society.  For my friend, he's been experimenting with ED drugs, generic Viagra and Cialis, with good success.  However, he's really bothered by how he got here -- the cause.  ED can be caused by other health problems, like obesity, circulation problems or diabetes, but often it just gradually occurs as you age.

My friend always thoroughly researches a topic he's interested in.   He was explaining to me how widespread ED has become in society.  In his view the main culprit is the widespread availability of porn.  PIED -- Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction is apparently an epidemic.  The concerning thing here is the population being affected by ED -- it's not just men over 50.  It's men in their 20's and even younger.  Look at online postings where 20 year old guys bemoan their ED and describe their use of porn going back to twelve years old.  Stopping porn is a start, but it's not a quick cure.

Some states have started to require age verification to access porn sites.  I guess that's somewhat helpful in keeping minors out.  What's one of the biggest porn sites these days?  It's X (fka Twitter).  There's no age verification for that site.  Several people have told me that X is their go-to for porn these days.

As my friend was explaining, prior to the internet, or let's say more than forty years ago -- how many penises (in a porn context) did a man see in his life?  Ten?   Twenty?    How many penises has the regular porn user seen in his life now, even if he's 25 years old?  Easily tens of thousands.   What does that do to the brain?  

The day of reckoning is here for the ill effects of porn.